I’m back.

I know I’ve been infrequent in this whole blogging thing but I’ve been busy…..Lots of things have been going on…..But this blog is warranted by the fact I have recently started online dating…..It has been quite an experience. There was one short fling but something wasn’t clicking so that ended…..and now I’m dealing with a foray of people who just want meet ups to hookup which I am so not looking for…..But my attention is stuck on that something that wasn’t clicking…..On paper we were perfect. In theory we should have clicked and been like amazing…but in life something just wasn’t there for me — even though I was finally getting “the movie” — Great conversation, he was straight, kind of cute, lots of common interests but enough different to make things interesting, a romantic….had butterflies when we held hands, enjoyed kissing him, second date was walking along a pier at a beach overlooking the ocean….swung on swings in a park….went for a sushi dinner where we laughed and talked and joked and then ended with a kiss goodbye………what went wrong????? I mean there were things flying off in my head that I’m not going to get into on the internet so maybe it wasn’t a fear of commitment or me being too picky — I am only 19…..but – what if I do have some sort of rejection to commitment? or I am too picky? How does one actually know when you like someone and you’re not just fooling yourself into it or forcing it or what not????? So very complicated……and that’s where I am…..

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